Life is good.
Life is very good. It is as simple as that. I know there will be challenges, but the difference between myself last year and this year is that I will gladly face them.
I am learning piano at long last, and loving it. I'm learning about the Physics of Sound and Music, with Keyboard training, and Harmony EVERY DAY. I just auditioned for the highest instrument ensemble in the school (I hope I impressed somebody), and I have never felt so alive.
But not that crazy, shaking sort of alive. I feel...knowledgeable, determined, and powerful beyond measure. And this feeling offers no detriment to any other person, as if I were better than them or something. This feeling is entirely internal. I am content, and excited.
And this feeling...I am suddenly beset by my previous posts, how my last mess of wrath and words was only a prelude of things to come, as I spiral deeper and deeper into my temper.
So in that light, my quest for equanimity has hit a snag, to which I have turned from this path of anger, and instead have picked up the search for the source. I do not enjoy being grumpy, but for a time it had seemed one of the few things people could relate to...which makes me very sad.
But tomorrow is a new day, and I'll face it, sword drawn and grinning.
Over and Out,
Adam
PS: Due to my rigorous studying schedule, you'll hear from me every week or so. Take care and thank you for reading. ;)
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